I wonder. Will you be mad? Will you understand? I am not made to be what I tried so hard to be. I hope I will make you proud. But it is time to focus on my family. To not make the same mistakes over again. To love and give all of myself. To help him be the best that he can be not for himself but for us. One of us has to give and I have always known that it would be me. To love him. His is my rock the glue that holds me together. What good is this without him what good is life without love?