"Are you strong enough to be my man?"

God, I feel like hell tonight
Tears of rage I cannot fight
I'd be the last to help you understand
Are you strong enough to be my man?
Nothing's true and nothing's right
So let me be alone tonight
Cause you can't change the way I am
Are you strong enough to be my man?
Lie to me
I promise I'll believe
Lie to me
But please don't leave, leave, don't leave
I have a face I cannot show
I make the rules up as I go
So try and love me if you can
Are you strong enough to be my man?
My man......Are you strong enough? (to be my man....)
Are you strong enough? Are you strong enough? (my.....man)
When I've shown you that I just don't care
When I'm throwing punches in the air
When I'm broken down and I can't stand
Would you be man enough to be my man?
Lie to me
I promise, I'll believe
Lie to me
But please don't leave


That is the question of a lifetime. I love that song and it makes me wonder. Is there someone out there that is strong enough to be mine? Strong enough to push over the walls. Strong enough to help me face my issues head on. Strong enough just to hold me when I cry. I dont want Superman just someone that is willling to take the time to look behind the exterior and into my heart. to love me for who I am not what they want me to be. To love me when Im silly and want to dance in the rain. To love me when Im soo stressed over work that I could jump. Not to fix my problems but to help work thru them. Maybe the first question I should ask a guy is "are you strong enough to be my man?" if he runs then thats a big no. Or maybe I just want tooo much. Maybe there are no fairytales no happy ends. Maybe Im looking for a dream that I will never find. The impossible.
I swear I hate the word settle but maybe thats what we are suppose to do. A friend of mine said her and her husband had settled with each other. Not that she loved him but that she had settled. OMG I dont want to settle. I want to be loved. Love cant be settling can it? I want to be 80 and sleeping with my husband and him wake up and think "I love this woman sooo much" not "OMG what was I thinking and why did I settle for her" Ok so now that I have totally gone around in circle i guess I will hush. Yes No Maybe