Fall by Clay Walker

Hold up there you go again
Puttin on that smile again
Even though I know you’ve had a bad day
Doin this and doin that
Always puttin’ yourself last
A whole lotta give and not enough take
But you can only be strong so long before you break…
So fall go on and fall apart
Fall into these arms of mine
Ill catch you every time you fall
Go on and lose it all
Every doubt every fear every worry every tear
Im right here
Baby fall
Forget about the world tonight
All that’s wrong and all that’s right
Lay your head on my shoulder let it fade away
And if you wanna let go baby its okay
Fall go on and fall apart
Fall into these arms of mine
Ill catch you every time you fall
Go on and lose it all
Every doubt, every fear, every worry, every tear
Im right here
Baby fall
Hold on hold on hold on to me...
Fall go on and fall apart
Fall into these arms of mine
Ill catch you every time you fall
Go on and lose it all
Every doubt, every fear, every worry, every tear
Im right here
Baby fall



This song reminds me of my sweetie. Whenever I'm upset, he just tells me to lay my head on his chest and let it all out. Here lately I've had to do that alot. So much going on and cant keep that smile all the time. To hard to. Whats even harder is not telling him why I was crying. I couldnt. How in the world do you tell the man you love that you may have to give him up? I couldnt ask him to take on what I thought I was going to have to. It wouldnt have been fair to him. All is better now and we are planning our future together. How awesome that sounds Our future. I cant believe it. I do soo love him. And sometimes it is very weird to look back at the path that has gotten us here. I know our path together will not always be a smooth one but I have to keep focused on the goal not the obsticle. There will be bumps in the road but we will always be on it together. Hand in hand we will make it.

What a week. Im tired and worn out need a vacation. Need a good nights sleep. Why do some people in our lives make it their duty in life to try to make our lives harder? Why is it so hard to say ya know we will never be friends but lets suck it up and at least be civil? Are you still mad at me cause I couldnt take it anymore? Im not mad at you cause you couldnt love me or make time for me. You are who you are. I accept that. But then may be you are that evil and hateful and never happy person. Maybe you have turned into your parents. But the question is do you want that for your children?

I went shopping last night and got a new cd. Nelly Furtado. I got it for one song Say It Right. love that song. Then I found this song.

"In God's Hands"

I looked at your face I saw that all the love had died
I saw that we had forgotten to take the time
I, I saw that you couldn't care less about what you do
Couldn't care less about the lies
You couldn't find the time to cry
We forgot about love
We forgot about faith
We forgot about trust
We forgot about us
Now our love's floating out the window
Our love's floating out the back door
Our love's floating up in the sky in heaven
Where it began back in God's hands
You said that you had said all that you had to say
You said baby it's the end of the day
And we gave a lot but it wasn't enough
We got so tired that we just gave up
We didn't respect it
We went and neglected it
We didn't deserve it
But I never expected this
Our love floated out the window
Our love floated out the back door
Our love floated up in the sky to heaven
It's part of a plan
It's back in God's hands
Back in God's hands
It didn't last
It's a thing of the past
Oh we didn't understand
Just what we had
Oh I want it back
Just what we had
Oh I want it back
Oh just what we had

I know this song. Its like I wrote it. I know exactly how it feels to watch your love disappear and to sit there and wish there was a way t oget it back. I dont know if that is even possible. After the love is gone can you make it come back? After all the heartache is it possible? I get scared sometimes that if love is able to be lost will it happen again? That maybe my sweetie will wake up one day and not love me anymore like my ex and I did? But I know I can not compair the two. And I cant judge one by what the other did. I am a different person and he is not my ex so the equation is different. I just hope and pray. I want to grow old with this man I want to see everything with him. But most of all I want forever with him.

Thank God for Girlfriends

Need a night out away from the problems of my life. Girls going out and we gonna have fun. No men. Just girls laughing and being our silly selves. Not caring what the people around us think. Girls just wanna have fun. Time to forget what has been happening lately and just chat. Good food and great conversation.

I have learned over the last few weeks that the generation gap sucks. Usually a child would later in life take care of the parent. But not in my case. My grandmother lost both her children in one year. Thank God my uncle keeps everything straight for her but here lately she is needing more help and at the end of the day my brother and I are all she really has. With him not here it has been up to me to help my uncle get things straight and I cant ask him to do it all. She is my grandmother but the missing generation sucks. I know not what to do. If she has to end up living with me I will have to give up a few of my dreams. Maybe I wont but how do I ask the man I love the most in the world to take this on wit me. I cant. I love him too much for that. Its not fare for him. He has dreams and I will not destroy them. But if I give up my dreams will it destroy me?

I heard this song on the way to work this morning. What a beatiful morning it is. The sun just starting to shine in all its beauty and all I could think of is that one day I want to get married in the moring just as the day starts anew. A new beginning should start when the sun rises. Everything is fresh and glowing. Why do we get married in the afternoon and at night?
Beautiful As You lyrics

From the moment I saw you
From the moment I looked into your eyes
There was something about you I knew, I knew
That you were once in a lifetime
A treasure near impossible to find
And I know how lucky I am to have you

Cause I've seen rainbows that could take your breath away
The beauty of the setting sun, on any given day
And when it comes to shooting stars I have seen a few
But I've never seen anything as beautiful as you

I can't believe that I have you
I can't believe that you're here in my arms
I've been waiting a life time for you, for youAnd I've dreamed about you
Pictured in my mind who I would see
But I never imagined just how beautiful you'd be

Cause I've seen rainbows that could take your breath away(take your breath away)
The beauty of the setting sun, on any given day (any given day)
And when it comes to shooting stars I have seen a few
But I've never seen anything as beautiful as you
I've seen rainbows that could take your breath away (take your breath away)

The beauty of the setting sun, on any given day
And when it comes to shooting stars I have seen a few
But I've never seen anything as beautiful
But I've never seen anything as beautiful as you
From the moment I saw you
From the moment I looked into your eyes