Need or Want

Do you want him?

or

Do you need him?

Do you want to wake up in his arms?

or

Do you need to wake up in his arms?

Its weird how people can say I dont need him/her but I want them. You cant really have it both ways. If you want them and dont need them at the same time its not love. This need is not like you needing to pay the bills but you needing to breathe and eat. Its the point at which you are no longer 2 seperate souls but one. Without the other half you are empty. A song without the music. How can a person that is suppose to love another look into their eyes and in the same breath say I love you. I dont need you but I want you. Want is a desire. Desires fade.

Fortune cookies

The longest journey is the journey inwards.

The stars appear every night in the sky. All is well.

I had the bestest time Friday night wiff my bestest friend. She has been there for me thru everthing these last 2 years and before that. We spend the night working on our scrapbooks and laughing. I love it when we can get together and just talk and laugh. I am almost finish with my son's first year professional pics. Just got to do his title page and Im done. Sad that he is 5 and Im just getn it finished. Hopefully I will get my daughters done before she is 5.
Saturday she colored my hair. Hehe I get red highlights. I love red. And boy do I have the attitude for red. then she cut it. btw for you men out there at no time should you say "how much did she cut off your hair looks shorter" never good. specially when your sweetie hates getn her hair cut.
Work work work for me today. maybe I will get home before my sweetie goes to bed.

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY

Why do we need a special day to tell the ones we love that we love them? Shouldn't we tell them everyday? Today is offically Valentine's Day but I've decided to move it to Saturday. So that gives me 4 more days to figure out how to say what I want to say. Becca Im not going to chicken out this time. Its time to say it and see what happens. If its not meant to be then better to know now then later. Ive already given him my heart now I just need to tell him that I love him.

Its been 8 years and yet it seems like it just happened. I still remember the words the feeling the tears. I remember the call. And in that instant my life changed. I was the glue that held everything together when all I wanted to do was fall apart. No one in my family knows that I blame myself. That I think about what if I had been there. That it was my words that broke his heart. I know he hold no hard feelings toward me cause daddies never do. And he knows I punish myself enough. Just one last hug and a kiss and to hear him call me his girl. I love you Daddy

I'm still alive. I will be glad when company taxes are done. I hate inventory. I've had alot on my mind lately just havent figured out how to get it all into words.

I've decided I hate slow weeks at work. They drive me crazy but then Im already crazy so Im not sure it makes much of a difference. The good thing about being slow is Ive not really felt like dealing with alot of people lately. To much on my mind to be bothered with being nice. I think about the past way too much. I cant change it so I should learn to accept it amd move on. Im missing my sweetie. He has been working alot lately so little time for me. Which then makes me doubt how he feels for me and right now I really need his support. But in his defense I hadnt told him about everything that is going on right now. I wanted to talk to him face to face but I couldnt wait any longer. So out it came and I think I told him in a nice way. Its hard for me to say how I feel over the phone cause I start to cry and then it never makes any sense. Much better at typing it or face to face. He had no idea what date was coming up. All I really want is for him to hold me and let me cry it all out. No words have to be said just let me cry myself to sleep in his arms.