Friday, November 25, 2005

Here's what you do.
Copy and paste the instructions below.
Don't forget to do it yourself too!

1. Go into your archives.
2. Find your 23rd post.
3. Post the fifth sentence, or as close to it as you can.
4. Post the text of the sentence in your blog along with these instructions.
5. Tag five other people to do the same thing

My 23 post was a poem so this is the 5th line

If you truely love someone

So this leads me to ask you how would you end that statement

Guess what

Only 1 month till Christmas

Dont forget the true meaning of Christmas

From Thanksgiving to Thanksliving

We set around our tables full of food and family. We set there listening to each person say one thing that they are thankful for. But why is it that we only do this one time a year? Why do we have to have a special day to remind us to be thankful? We should be thankful every day not just on the one dedicated day. When I asked my son what he was thankful for he said "a beautiful day". We should all remember to be thankful for any day. No day is promised to us. Just waking up in the morning is a blessing even if everything goes wrong that day. So my promise to children and myself is to not forget that we have so very much to be thankful for and to change our way of living to thanksliving.

To my Stars,
I am very thankful that God sent ya'll to me. Ya'll are second greatest gift giving to me. The greatest gift was my faith. If I never teach ya'll anything I hope and pray that ya'll will always know that God loves you. When everyone else fails you God is there to hold you up. Chipmunks, I love ya'll more than my own life. Never forget that. Where ever ya'll are you are never alone. Stick together. Learn to love each other. Never think that you cant do something. Just put your mind to it and you can achieve anything. I love ya'll.
Love,
Mom

Saturday, November 19, 2005

Smiling

Its cold outside. There is frost on the ground. And my automatic starter didnt work this morning. But I was still warm. I am warm from the inside out. Happiness is its own heat. I left for work early. I drove like a sane person. I just keep smiling. Even work today is not going to get me down. Im going off with my best friend and we havent been off together in months. wooooooooohoooooooooooo women be shop'n

Friday, November 18, 2005

Far Away - Nickelback

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know


That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore


On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know


That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore


So far away
(So far away)
Been far away for far too long
So far away
(So far away)
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you any more
Believing
Hold on to me and never let me go
Keep breathing, 'cause i'm not leaving you any more
Believing
Hold on to me and never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and never let me go


Every time I hear this song I want to cry. The first time I heard it was in the car with my sweetie. I so wanted to tell him that it fits me. Ive loved him for a long time now and still havent told him. Im scared to admit that I do love him. I love the way I feel when Im in his arms. I love the way he teases me and then smiles that smile. I love that way he moves so that I lay my head on his shoulder when he's driving. I love the way he gets me icecream even when he knows I gonna be wired and hyper from it. I love the way he oh I cant type that here te hehe

Thursday, November 17, 2005

Have we forgotten Thanksgiving?

I am beginning to wonder if everyone has forgotten that there is a holiday in November. My neighbor has had their Christmas lights up for over 2 weeks. The mall is full of trees. Have we all forgotten to be thankful? I know I have. On the way to taking my kids to school today it hit me hard. My daughter had a little girl in here class last year that is not there this year. She is fighting for her life. I got thinking how easily it could have been one of my stars. I am thankful that it isnt. Cancer knows no age. There is a reason Thanksgiving comes before Christmas. We cant truely understand Christmas if we arent thankful first. I am truely blessed but I forget it way to much. I am thankful that God blessed me with my stars so that I can see life thru their eyes. I am thankful that God has never given up on me. Although I wonder at time why He doesnt just strike me dead. LOVE complete and total love. My best friend told me that other day that she was glad to see me smiling. What was the reason for this smile. My daughter had just told me she loved me and to have a great day. How can you not have a great day after that?

You said all the right words
I knew I shouldnt listen
You told me of a love
I knew I couldnt have
You offered me the world
I knew it was not mine to take
You said you'd love me forever
I knew I loved you too
You said one day will be together
I knew one day may never come
You made me open my eyes
I knew my life was one big lie
You walked away
I knew Id never see you again

Friday, November 11, 2005

Should you tell others what you dream about?

This morning I was telling my sweetie what I dreamed about and I think he now thinks that I have totally lost my mind. I dreamed about going to Walmart with him. Not to weird till you factor in that I had a small horse with me and we slept on top of the carts that were all lined up. Maybe I should stop eating icecream before bed. Or maybe its the M&Ms in the icecream. Or maybe its just that Im a total nutcase.

Tuesday, November 08, 2005

"Laughter is inner jogging." - Norman Cousins

I read this one on a customers check the other day. "I love you because you do so many things that make me feel good."

Friday, November 04, 2005

"Time heals all wounds"

Ok I have no idea who said this saying but Im beginning to think they were wrong. Time doesnt heal them. Time may make you forget them. Time may make them seem less important but healing them I dont think so. Some wounds never really heal we just put a bandaid over them and hope they will go away. We all carry battle scars from our childhood from past relationships from life in general. We may come to terms with our wounds but that doesnt mean that they are not reopened the next time something reminds us of them. One of my wounds is "Pack your shit and get the f*** out". I heard this for over 6 months before I finally did just that. So now I carry that with me into my new relationship. When I pack up from staying at his place for the weekend I make sure I dont leave anything behind that I cant live without cause Im scared come next week the lock will be changed and I will no longer be welcome. I know this is silly cause they are two totally different guys but the wound hasnt healed I guess. Or maybe its healed but I can still see the scar. So the saying "Sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me" applies too. Words can hurt more than action. If he had broken my bones they would have healed by now but he broke my belief in myself. They made me try to change who I was. I believed his words even when I knew that he was wrong. Time may heal some wounds but the scars from words can also be left forever.